i suddenly miss cheddar.
it felt weird cleaning the drawers today,
and taking out only 3 hamsters instead of 4.
there's a 'something's missing' feeling.

hmm.
just hope she's in Heaven, with God[:
// end post

realised on the mrt that there's no point in holding on to the past,
and there's no way to certain the future,
but there's still this funny feeling that makes me want to persue the past,
hoping that things could become what might have been, then.

i dunno,
i think i'll just try and make friends in dhs,
regardless of whether they're the kind that i'm looking for.
and i think,
that some of my squadmates are almost there.
//end insights

song of the day:

superman . five for fighting

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird...i’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd...but don’t be naive
Even heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed...but won’t you concede
Even heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away...away from me
It’s all right...you can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy...or anything...

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
Inside of me
Inside me
Yeah, inside me
Inside of me

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
I’m only a man
Looking for a dream

I’m only a man
In a funny red sheet
And it’s not easy, hmmm, hmmm, hmmm...

Its not easy to be me